The Price of progress

I am emailing in flight for the first time

I remember when the fax machine became affordable and readily available. I would sit up all night faxing. I was so amazed by the technology. I'm sure my friends and co-workers were not so pleased with my using up their ink and paper to share every new idea that pooped into my head.

Now I'm just as giddy with inflight email. I should be sleeping since I only had 4 hours but I cant help emailing people to say "I'm emailing inflight"

How...ridiculous

and addictive

Technology fascinates and frightens me. That's the addictive combination pleasure plus danger equal adrenalin rush!!!!!

I remember reading FOUR ARGUMENTS FOR THE ELIMINATION OF TELEVISION and it was either that or IN THE ABSENCE OF THE SACRED that puts forth the proposition that every new technology is sold to us for the good qualities even though the marketeers are fully aware of all of the BAD qualities.

And we buy into the good with a tacit and implicit acceptance of whatever negative consequence it carries

Like, I was listening to two guys in the gym. They happened to be a White guy and a Black Guy. The white guy was talking about how he sold insurance. And that there used to be a time when people would call and the standard answer was "I'll get back to you.' And we folks expected to wait a few weeks for a response. He said now folks call and they have 10 quotes from the internet infront of them and they want your answer immediately or they are moving on to whomever can get it to them quicker and cheaper.

On the one hand the guys were saying it has made most companies have to produce, better, cheaper and faster but...

But, they extrapolated, this ready availability of transporting information and purchasing and selling has a direct correlation to the global financial collapse.

The Black guy said, "Yeah people used to have to hand write quotes for stock sales and there was a delivery process and time. Now suddenly with internet transactions, there were millions of transactions a second. And there is just no way it is humanly possible to moniter or oversee the truth or validity with that kind of volume.

Yeah, so we've got our speed and convenience but so have the criminals. they can now get paid quicker and disappear quicker and not only never get caught because they have anonymity online but because there are just too many of them to catch

So while I'm loving my inflight email today...
I might not feel the same once the first inflight hackers start pulling my paswords and private information because now we are locked in a box together for several hours and their devices have the time to work things out and I will never know what hit me

Mortality

I'm too old to feel so obsolete. At least I think I am. But I feel very out of touch.

But then people twice my age have been running the world for as long as Ive been living.

Its just that I have children in multiple generations. And I dont know what they're talking about. And they laugh at the things I say. And ask me what things were like in the "olden days"

Ive lost my passion for creativity. I wonder if anyone is still out there who even thinks the way that I do.

For instance, is there anyone out there who thinks that releasing your sex tapes or letting people watch you cheat on your mate , beat up your rival or just fuck up and over everyone in your family and life might be the kind of thing to keep in the closet.

Oh its fun to watch! But then I start wondering if that's what it takes to get on TV and if it is I just don't have what it takes.

For one, I'm too wide and round for anyone to wanna watch me having sex except as maybe an advertisement for birth control

And its hard to have rivals when you're in bed by ten and cant remember the last time you were in a bar and basically aren't in the game to generate any competition.

And the shit gets me fired up to fuck people up is stuff like justice and basic human rights which are so passe, so illogical, irrational and just plain out of touch with reality.

Ive been watching the news and I anticipate the next crop of reality shows will be : White Collar Crime: the cream rises to the top or For Honor and Country-Tips on degrading and humiliating the enemy

Oprah apologized to James Frey. Do you think she'll call in a personal favor and ask Obama to pardon Madoff

I'm plotting my own rise to the top, I know I'll have to get dirty and throw open the closet and let all my dirty laundry fly

stay tuned somethin's brewin'

New Year New.....?

Okay so the year is half over.
So I shot new actor photos this past week. Great photographer, Jeff Nicolson of The Shot Photography. Alex kelly did my hair. Mary Kula and Lisa Arturo did the make-up.
The catch is I feel and photigraph younger and better than I'm ever cast.
We tried to do goofy and old and it didn't quite work out.

The fact is no one is hiring me to be sexy, even though grandmothers have to be fuckable to get a job in Hollywood. And I'm everybody's mama or grandmama

So I love the photos. But will the girl in them get any work...?

Lets hope so

30lbs to go....