Mortality

I'm too old to feel so obsolete. At least I think I am. But I feel very out of touch.

But then people twice my age have been running the world for as long as Ive been living.

Its just that I have children in multiple generations. And I dont know what they're talking about. And they laugh at the things I say. And ask me what things were like in the "olden days"

Ive lost my passion for creativity. I wonder if anyone is still out there who even thinks the way that I do.

For instance, is there anyone out there who thinks that releasing your sex tapes or letting people watch you cheat on your mate , beat up your rival or just fuck up and over everyone in your family and life might be the kind of thing to keep in the closet.

Oh its fun to watch! But then I start wondering if that's what it takes to get on TV and if it is I just don't have what it takes.

For one, I'm too wide and round for anyone to wanna watch me having sex except as maybe an advertisement for birth control

And its hard to have rivals when you're in bed by ten and cant remember the last time you were in a bar and basically aren't in the game to generate any competition.

And the shit gets me fired up to fuck people up is stuff like justice and basic human rights which are so passe, so illogical, irrational and just plain out of touch with reality.

Ive been watching the news and I anticipate the next crop of reality shows will be : White Collar Crime: the cream rises to the top or For Honor and Country-Tips on degrading and humiliating the enemy

Oprah apologized to James Frey. Do you think she'll call in a personal favor and ask Obama to pardon Madoff

I'm plotting my own rise to the top, I know I'll have to get dirty and throw open the closet and let all my dirty laundry fly

stay tuned somethin's brewin'